Just Another Fucked Up Day

Let me give everyone a piece of advice, if your going to leave someone for someone else, don't make excuses about it, just own it. As I am sure you can tell, things here on the home front are from from great. Well I guess I should leave out the "HOME" front as I don't have one anymore. My relationship of 12 years ended at 1:20 am. Guess I have known that this was going to happen for a while now. Don't get me wrong, all things are a 2 way street and I caused plenty of the problems, but it is pretty fucked up getting strung along for months. I always thought that if things came to this, she would at least have the decency to tell me to my face, one would think after 12 years I deserve that much. Guess not. Really goes to show just how much some people care.

What is really fucked up is to have the other party on another phone when you do it, that is priceless! What would the mastercard commercial look at for that one:

1 Engagement Ring $5,000
12 years of your life on the line $500,000
1 long distance phone call for 20 mins $13.75

Having the other guy on another phone when she leaves you PRICELESS!

OK, yea I am pissed off and bit bitter. Is it fair, nope, but nothing in life ever is.

So, now that I am homeless, at least till I get my shit moved out, and I have no one worry about other than myself, it should make my job search interesting. I guess I don't have to worry about Home Time.....LMAO That is going to make me laugh every time a recruiter mentions it. Home, what home.......What a fucking mess.

Always seems to go that way, you get one thing to go right and everyone else fucks everything else up for you. Well, nobody else gives a damn so why should I. Right?

Anyway, aside from losing 12 years of my life in one day, things have to get better. Tomorrow I guess I will try to sell my car so I can afford a U-haul to move my shit out of the house in Cali. Be damned if some other dude, or my EX for that matter, is going to enjoy the benefits of everything I have worked for, for the last 12 years. Then I have to try and call some more recruiters and get a job where I can life on the road, at least till I buy a house, now for myself. Always thought I would be using my VA home purchase benefits to buy a house for Steph and me, not just ME. The messed up thing was I had found 6 different houses that I was going to surprise her with the option of picking when she came out here. Now i have to call the Realtor and cancel all that. God that pisses me off, and yea OK it hurts pretty good too. It took me 5 years to get into a position that I could do this and literally 1 fucking week before I am to unveil the greatest surprise of all time what happens! Guess it is better to find out before hand, still sucks though.

Yup, I know, I am still pissed........ guess I will end this post for now as I doubt that I can keep my fingers from venting my absolute pure unadulterated anger. Granted I shouldn't dwell on it as I can't change it anyway.

Just another fucked up day!