Sunday, July 24, 2005

Just To Lighten My Mood

Part of my problem, and I am sure the reason my anger keeps resurfacing no matter how hard I try to keep it away is that I have nothing to do with my time other than listen to music. Music is evil when you feel like this. Every song reminds me of her in some way or another.

I own everyone, Stephanie included an apology for letting my anger get the best of me. It is hard to be rational right now, but I am doing my best. What makes it worse is I have no one to turn to. No one to talk to. I haven't even been able to talk to Stephanie, though I guess I can't blame her for not taking my call with my recent fits of anger. All I can do spend my time selling off everything thing I have worked for in my life to make a 2800 mile trip that will mean the end of my life as I have known it for 12 years. Not exactly things that put a smile on your face, or pleasant thoughts in your mind. I am sure when it is all said and done, and the dust settles I will have nothing left. A lifetime of work destroyed in the time it takes to say 3 words. LOL, if I thought that things were financially tight with her....... well, it doesn't matter. They can come for whatever is left, or garnish my wages for the rest of my existence however long I have to endure that.

But I thought I would put a funny spin on disaster! Maybe someone will get a laugh out of the images.





The one song that seems to ease my pain is by Mark Collie - In Time. Good song and hope it is true.

Goodnight

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

Apology accepted hon. I hope the phone call helped explain things better. I still love you, but I hope now you understand why I have to do this.